"It is on our failures that we base a new and different and better success." -Havelock Ellis

I took the board exam last November 2008, i was excited for the result, for me the exam was OK, the result came out last February's, i waited the result on the Internet for almost a day, my anxiety was rising, bit too excited and nervous.

The result came out, then i found out that i failed. (ouch!)
i can't tell what i felt that time.( i feel mad, i want to cry, i feel jealous, and i feel like I'm a LOSER!)

That was very sad for me the i told what happened to my family. they were very supportive and told me that it is normal to fail sometimes. i felt good about that but then i am sad....

i feel weak. i don't want to speak to anyone....that's my big problem, that Failure!

the next day my friends texted me that we are going to my former classmates house. her father died... when we were there, i saw her relatives were crying, all of the people there were sad, i saw her father lying on the casket,and i told to myself......."He is too young to die.." . I saw the mother and she looks very sad too, she wants to cry, she said that she cant imagine life without her husband......

As i go home, i realized that there were people that has bigger problems than i am. problems that were harder yet they can survive. i know i can deal with it... maybe I'll help myself first, knowing my weaknesses, and realizing whats my goal...

i can survive this!